Equality

Corinthians 8:12-15 (King James Version)
12 For if there be first a willing mind, it is accepted according to that a man hath, and not according to that he hath not. 13 For I mean not that other men be eased, and ye burdened: 14 But by an equality, that now at this time your abundance may be a supply for their want, that their abundance also may be a supply for your want: that there may be equality: 15 As it is written, He that had gathered much had nothing over; and he that had gathered little had no lack.


I worry about my relationship with Erin sometimes. I feel as if there are so many ways that I fall short as a man. I'm forgetful, I misplace things, I'm a terrible manager of time and money. I get sidetracked easily. In order for our lives to be a place of comfort for Erin, she'll have to keep things in order. She's got to manage our lives.

It's frustrating to me. I feel as if I should be able to do this. Isn't that the "man's job"? Keeping things in order? I feel weak when I get a text message from her, reminding me to call this person or run that errand. Especially when I've forgotten to do so.

It's a deficit for me. I lack in this area. I want.

Erin, on the other hand, has an abundance of time management skills. Out of her abundance she makes up for my want. In this area there is now equality. I am grateful for the text messages and e-mails and keeping of "the calendar"!.

What can I do for her, though? Where does she want? I haven't figured it all out just yet. Other than the occasional heavy object that needs lifted, she seems to have it all together.

It is so obvious to me why God has brought Erin to my life. I know where every weakness is within myself, and Erin seems to fill those gaps so easily. I've only seen one small opportunity where I can lift her up. Where my abundance makes up for her want. Sometimes things get overwhelming and she needs to be held and loved and encouraged. I'll gladly hold her and encourage her and love her because she gives to me so freely from her abundance.

Erin is an "over the top" gesture from God. She fills in the cracks in my heart. She soothes and warms and heals. Aside from salvation and along with my children, she is among the greatest gifts God has bestowed on me. God has given to me out of His abundance. I am now a whole person. I wanted for Erin.

Now, how do I give to God out of my abundance? By taking care of the gifts He's entrusted me with. It's the only way I know how.

...Thank you, Lord. For all that you've done. I know I say that every time I start to pray, but I don't know what else to say. You've given me so much happiness and joy. You've met each need. You've walked with me when I didn't even feel like getting out of bed. I give my thanks and gratitude and service to you, Lord. Help me to be Your servant....